Lately I've been thinking in a very negative way. And I don't mean negative things that could happen to me or my sourroundings, but I have negative opinions and negative reactions about certain things, which shouldn't be negative at all. I wonder whether I've become less tolerant, or less optimistic. I used to be a very positive and optimistic person, but these days I've been seriously considering that this is not what I am anymore.
According to the diccionary, negativeness means something unpleasant, pessimistic, among many other meanings, all "negative". Being negative has brought a few conflicts to my life, as it may bring them to anyone's life. Seeing things with a negative sight doesn't help to live in peace. I was told once, that one should try to ignore how awful the world is and try to create their own garden of flowers to live in, and only let in the people we truly care about, the people we want to share this little bit of happiness with. But seeing the world as globalised as it is nowadays, it's almost impossible to try to lock ourselves in a tiny peaceful and loving world. It's too hard to ignore the facts that are going on all around the world, including war, terrorism and most of all, Global Warming. How can anyone try to ignore global warming? Funnily enough, only a few people in the world care and do something to avoid such a catastrophe. I am not one of them. If something like this should happen, it's 100% because of the behaviour of the human race, and in a way, we deserve it. I read in a book that this had happened before. Men had lost control over technology and so it started to take over and civilization as we know it ceased to exist, and so did every living being on this planet. So History repeated itself, and now we find ourselves in front of the same dilemma: technology v/s life. At first sight it seems like a very obvious choice. We'd choose life. But we don't. We choose technology because it makes our lives more comfortable and easier. We choose technology cause it's cool. We choose our car over our bike. And hence we choose pollution over health. Funny, isn't it? How rational human beings are, and yet are not capable of making the right choices.
I know the world has become globalised... but if only this would happen to people also... but it's been the other way around. We become more and more self-centered. This globalisation we talk about has only decreased barriers of time and distance. But barriers of love remain high. Love to each other, love to our planet, love to life.
I know I should probably make up my mind and start doing things for the planet, help organizations who protect animals in danger of extinction, help to make people change their cars for their bikes, or even the train... so many things I could do. But, I assume many people feel the same as me, they feel that their help would be meaningless in comparisson to how big the world is, and how big is the amount of people who keep on walking this earth with their eyes closed, walking in their own little garden of flowers. Maybe I should start doing that again... but now it's too late, I've open my eyes and falling asleep again seems impossible.
I'll do something, I swear I will. Wait and see.